Keep Pushing Forwards...

People used to care genuinely for others.... Now it seems more like they barely even hear the answer - and they always expect it to be 'I'm good thanks' anyway. I see no point in talking to people anymore - not even friends... If they want to talk to me, sure, but in the end no one ever really wants to listen; they just see it as a "job" in a sense...

Besides, everyone's better off without me. If you look at the first few blogs I wrote and how calm my mind was... How much more sense I made... but not now aye - it's all over the place and just a random bunch of nothing. I've gotten worse by the day; my blogs prove that. I'm a mess and my friends deserve better.

I used to know what I wanted out of life - now there's little light left in this darkness BUT I tell you what? I'm still not giving up. I can't. There are people who need me to be there for them; so I will be there. I will remain as [the] ShadowAngel for those I love so long as they need me.

Nothing else matters. I don't know what else to say... My mood changed and that's just it - Nothing else matters... Just the next step... Just keep pushing forwards - towards that life I imagined that seems so far away... a distant dream I'll find eventually.