Read Me!

Well, I wanted to write an update. I know this place is only for my negative thoughts, and it seems to help... but when I go back and read what I've written, it's kinda depressing! True. Duh. Well, moving on.

A place for my negative thoughts. Shit happens in life. Like the HSC - the greatest metaphor I heard was that the HSC is a poo sandwich. You might not like it, but you still have to eat it, and so does everyone else (to whom it applies). Well. Life gives you shit, you just have to shovel through it and keep going. Life throws piles of it. Some is soft and easier to get through.. other times it's hard and unrelenting. (This is a rather disgusting metaphor, I know, but in truth, it's what it feels like when you're honest doesn't it...)

You have to take life for what it is. If you can't be positive, you at least need to accept it for what it is and make the most of it. What other way is there to live? PLENTY! Haha! But, this way works. You know it would. I know it should. Doing it on the other hand, isn't quite that easy... or is it? I've done it. I still do... but sometimes I slip and end up back here again... back in my depression hole, digging deeper and deeper until I feel like I never went anywhere. I put myself down. I see everything in a negative way. The world is against me all over again!

In the end though, you have to remember what is important to you. Why are you still here? Why live on? Because it's worth it. Every experience, whether good or bad, makes you who you are... For better or worse, you are who you are right now... and the first step to moving forwards is accepting that.

I think that's where I am. I am realising where I am at. REALLY at. Not the "oh woe me" or the "life is amazing"... but somewhere in there is me and all the shit I've been pushing away for years and years... and I'm going to start going through it. I'm going to start moving forwards. For MY life. For myself. But also for those I love, and those I hold closest to me.

So for those of you out there who this reaches I want you to hear me. Everyone's lives have different warm moments, and different hardships. Some may think their life is worse than others or vise versa; but in the end your life is your life, and your hard might be my easy, or my hell might be your worst nightmare... Take it for what it is, and accept it. Take a deep breath, smile a little, love, and simply make the most of what you have.


Now I feel like I'm being all phylosophical, but to be honest, I feel crap right now - So I'm writing this to myself as much as I am to others. Maybe now when I come back to read my blog, I won't need to post, because I'll read this and realise that I've already got the answer I need, right here. For a start anyways. :)